i had two physical fathers

i had two fathers.  i never said good-bye to them when i went away from them each time.


Once i did sasung pranam and i knew this was the last time.  A few days ago before i left, He blessed me.   At that moment I knew he wanted  me to leave, He wanted me to go back home to work on His mission.  Time was up, even i was blessed i could be with Him as long as i wanted.

A few years ago, one night i stood by my father's bed.  i told him, "Ba!  time to go."  He said "Hao", kind of low voice from his throat.  He had two tubes in his mouth.  He could not talk.  But i saw the air,  the tune shaped the air around his month.  

It's about One o'clock am.  i stayed with him whole night alone.  i was with him in a small room which was in the basement of the hospital.  In hospital, they always put the dead body in the basement.  It's very very cold.  Cold would prevent the body decayed too fast.  i sang kiirtan.  i sang a special Dhranii again and agin.  i did not see him.  i believed he went back home.  Sometimes i left the room to be outside of the room because too cold in his room.  i went around to see how many bodies were put on there.  There were many small rooms in the basement.  You could hear sutra chanting recorded from a big hall.  i knew now was midnight.   There was no living being in the basement but the dead.

One time i sat before Vijakrananda.  A few days ago he passed away.  He lied down on the floor in front of me.  His head was there so closed i could reach out to touch his head.  We had a lot of discussion last time.  He still worried about Avinash.  He still liked to wield politics and strategies.  by doing things.  He told me many methods.  i did not like them.  We discussed for a long time until D.C. sitting was finished.

Challenge for a yoga teacher

i observed many margiis did not do mediation properly.  You saw Normandy coast on D-day on most of the D.C.   Some lay down, some stretched out one leg, some sat and waited,  waited for end,  some put one finger on one nostril and si-si-si-....and hu-hu-hu..... with big noise...., my God, what they were doing?  He was a family acharya.  See even Acharyas do not do mediation properly.  How can they teach a good student.


20 years ago, we sat for at least 40 minutes  in D.C. .  Now, sometimes shorter than 30 minutes.  One student told me it's easy to sit on padmasana, i told her it's easy for 10 minutes but not for 20 years.  I heard you did one thing daily and you can continue to do it over 3 years.  That thing will become your mission.

There is a big challenge as a yoga teacher to me.  That is you won't get sick.  i thought if you get sick your students sees you.  what will they think of you?  As a pro, you are teaching yoga class everyday.  Your students are with you everyday.  You see them changing and they also see you changing.

The last 5 years my challenge became even more, more than to have a healthy body.  My neighborhood should become a safe,  sweet and peaceful environment.  i felt sad when i heard earthquake happened in Nepal.  That means there was no high-hand spiritual person.  There was no moral and virtual person.    When Mother Teresa stayed in Isreal, there was no bombing for three days.  After an earthquake, there was a building collapse inTainan.  Many people got injured and died.  Not long ago, there was a kiirtan tour around Taiwan island.   i wondered they stayed in Tainan or not.  Did any people do a proper kiirtan in Tainan?

Challenge! Challange! Challange every day, every minute.

静坐的力量 1

第蒂玛度瑞在一篇文中说一个人在静坐， 会散发出一种强力的悦性力量， 讀到这里，我自己反省， 为什么我一点感觉都没有呢？

现在就是睡了也能知道附近有人在静坐。  为了你自己，为了公益，不要缺掉一天两次的静坐吧。 这是很好的服务社会的机会。

evolution is on psychic level

i do not think this is the normal course of evolution.  the normal course of evolution depends on psychic level mainly.  i.e. for example, if in this life a dog thinks a human being is nice, this dog wants to become a human, then, this dog may progress and become a human in its next life.  this dog does not need to change into a monkey's life first , then, a human.  

Darwin's evolution theory only think on physical level of evolution, so he failed to prove it.  Because there was no chains among them.  Monkey can not produce a human.  Monkey only produces monkey.  Human produces human.  i do not consider and mention negative pratisamchara here. 

pyramid energy 2

Namaskar!

Back to 1980,

i made a pyramid and 3 pieces group of pyramid.  when i sat and did translation work on a chair.  i put a pyramid under the chair.  i could see the universal line, like a spring, red, direction:  counter clockwise coming up.  materials:  glass and plywood were no good.  it was better in one piece.

i put 3 pieces group of pyramid under the bed.  one pointed to head, one pointed to waist and one point to legs.  my sleeping hours, enough sleeping hours from 4 change to 2 hours.  

during the experiment time, i could feel the healing power into my body.   

different kinds of energy:  one is our physical energy and we are using it daily.  one is from kapaliika puja, this energy is different from regular energy which we are familiar with.  Healing energy is also one kind.  anyone has used it to heal sickness of people. her or his body will emit a kind of energy so the person who has used this energy would recognize it.  More of healing you do, more warm air would be around you.  

One late evening, we stood in a circle before BaBa.  we were high up in the yang ming mountain.  i could feel warm inside the circle, but i felt cold on my back.   That's the way i recognized BaBa was a great healer.  

Sexual energy, emitting from sexual organs after you have done it or from your thought.  so it's better to take a bath before you come to d.c. or playing kiirtan.

energy, energy, i can go on and on.........  

all the lessons you are doing every day.  i can share with you a lot more about these lessons which you think you know.  anyway, it's better to discuss them with your acarya.  so, spend more time on your practice to recongnize the essence of lessons.

regarding kundalinii, the most powerful one, qi and the strength from kung-fu can not compare it.  Kundalinii raise up in a silk current, or in a pillar current;  color in red, in white, or shining, through your body inside out, or through susumna; timing: very fast, shorter than a second but also feel like a everlasting moment.  because you will be in samadhii after this phenomenon.   One time i saw BaBa withdraw this energy like a net, color is red into the air, i believed, back to Him.  

BABA NAM KEVALEM

American likes to talk and they do not listen

Since i came to America.  i found out Americans, most of Americans, like to talk and they do not listen.  Regardless the subject he knows or he does not know, he will give his opinions on this subject and then, he would say that's what i thought.  Great!


When i moved to Asheville, i found out young margiis here liked to give darshan in D.C.  i have to say you are all wrong until what your experience change completely, not 99% change, i mean 100% change, whatever you said would be wrong.

Remember what you say shows what your level is.  do not make yourself as a joke.

Pyramid Energy

Remembered i said before as a sadka, a person should have some secrets. Without secrets this person is not a sadhaka.  Why?  From where the sadhaka starts this spiritual journey, this sadhaka would experience internal and external change.  So this sadhaka will go forward from the first stage up to the last stage.

Here, how to transfer the energy from a mode to another mode really is a secret.  Person knows this secret, this person will finish journey for sure in this life.  But most of the people do not know this secret.  They are wondering between the first stage and the second stage, hardly goes to the 3rd stage, not to mention the last stage.  

Actually, in BaBa's book, he mentioned this very clearly.  I'm sure you already read it.  Unfortunatelly most of the margiis missed the meaning of his words.  In fact, i found out many margiis don't know how to read BaBa's words.  

In Maryland region, Sunday D.C. DaDa V. will select one subject from BaBa's book he wants to talk about it.  He will print out some paragraphs related to this subject from the E-books and print them out.  In darshan, Dada let us read it and then let us share what we think about it.  i am so surprised many margiis do not know what BaBa wants to say.  This is because of what your level is on and that's what you understand.  So according to your level, you choose what words your eyes scan.  It turns out what your understanding is.  That's why every time you read His words. Every time you find out something new.  For example, every margiis know how to do kiirtan.  But so far i havent seen any person can introduce how to do kiirtan properly.  Again, another example, everyone do breathing, but they dont know how to breath; no, you are not using your nose; refer to advanced breathing, do you know?  cakra breathing.  Again, another example,.....well, i can go on and on forever.....many things we are doing daily, but we dont know how to do them properly,.....OK!  We go back to energy, every margiis says vibration this, vibration that (starting level)  Behind the vibration, what do  you see?  it is energy.  (the word here is "see"  not "feel")  But most of us are on starting level.  They don't see energy.  They can feel it. Some dadas and didis may know more.  But how to transfer them into different mode is a secret.  There are really a few knows this secret.  Taoist and Daoism, China cara has discussed it for the last 6,000 years.  i, ...............

Years ago, i revealed i could sit on padmasana and did long meditation.  After my announcement, two dadas wanted to give me a test.  When they had an opportunity, they chose a place to sit behind me, so they could  observe me while i was doing meditation.  Well, although it was not a long test, but at least i sat on padmasana for a while.  This dada is Ranjitananda.  Another one is Mokseshvarananda.  Interestingly, , every time when he started talking to me, he would do two times second lesson.  

Here, respond to your question, you are asking a very good question.  It has been a question for all the sadhakas, they have wanted to know the answer for the last ten thousand years.  i would like to share the answer with you privately, but not publicly.   Taoist and Daoism followers know if they know the answer which  will improve their practice a thousand times better than what they are now.  i dont want some people may mis-utilize this knowledge. This knowledge is not for the public but selected persons.

Once BaBa taught me one lessen.  Next day, early morning,  He appeared in front of me (i was in Taipei, Taiwan and He was in India.) and told me not to tell to anyone.  He knew i was ready to tell it to my margii friends.  Until Today, these margii friends did not know why i stepped on the break.  And they never asked me why.  (The day before they were so enthusiastically to know.)