Life after Life

When i saw my guru for the first time, i didn't know why it's so special. i recognized when he saw me he was so happy. i didn't know the reason behind it. All people could see BaBa was very happy. But they didn't know the reason was the relationship between Him and i. They only knew the surface part, they didn't know the deepest part. In the story when Nahirii Mahasay met his guru for the first time, his guru pushed a button at his aja cakra to let him see his past life, to remind him who he was in his past life. When i was 6 or 7 years old, i felt something in me was different, the power in me. i knew but in vague. i sat on meditation by myself, nobody told me to do it. i didn't know how, but i sat there. i collected a lot of information on meditation. But always the image went around my life. i couldn't go into the door of my life. It was a puzzle to me. Unconsciously, i was seeking the answer to this deep question in my life. Why my guru was so happy in Taipei. He kept me around him all the time but he never push the button on me to remind me who i was before. He push the button on me were a little bit higher than the aja cakra. i felt a hole on my head several days after that action. i was worried that i was afraid rain would drop into my head. All the years passed and went along. no answer. but the picture is getting clearer and clearer. The power in me also getting clearer and more powerful. They go along the way i am growing spiritually. i dare not to tell anyone all these years. Since no one is high enough to see it. i kept it my secrecy and He help me to keep it. Margii knows. They all say BaBa loves me so much. But i could see the difference. That day he came to me, he uncovered all the secrecy in me and let me find them out myself. In front of Him, i didn't ask for something or i wanted anything when i was with him so closely when i was with him side by side so many times. i knew when i was so high to forget, i just forgot. i was in an unknown dimension in the universe during those 15 days with Him. Later, i felt i was in a dream of a dream. Dream to worldly people was a dream, to me. here was a dream, those days were the real "I". i'm dreaming now but i was real before for 15 days with him. i was there and i could go back there at any time and in anywhere. i can access samadhii in 10 to 15 minutes. i like it but i can not do it. if I've done it i would be lost in the world. i couldn't do His work. sometimes, i sustain myself, sometime He helps me to. Once, a long time before, i learned a "past life" meditation method. i learned i was one of the disciples of Sakyamuni. But i didn't know who i was. Later, the image became more and more vivid. i knew Buddha didn't teach too much but a few words. Absolutely, not that many like Mahayanii's information. Thousands and thousands of sutras, translated during the time of Xuan Zuang. Where they come from? From the noble Hindi, royal Hindhi, and Monks. They were not Sakyamunii says, only a few sutra, one or two, not many. Later, i found out i was Ananda, i was with him, Sakyamuni in his lifetime. That's why i could recite so many mantras and mudras. i remembered so many meditation and spiritual practices inborn. They were coming out bit by bit along with spiritual growth. That's the answer. and thousands of years ago, i was with Him, he told me that. Later, Sakyamuni, this lifetime again, Shrii Shrii Ananda Murti, Well, all the secrecy of my life reveals today. He didn't push the button, He wanted me to find it out myself. He knows i can.