You have to pretend to protect your practice

You have to pretend to protect your practice. Jealoucy gives me so much clash, a very good training. Especially from acary and from margii in the year of 1980s. BaBa knows what i went through during those days when i met him in 1982. For that BaBa felt so angry on those acary percecuted me before because of jealoucy. Later, i created a way. in order to avoid people's jealouscy, i have to pretend i don't follow 16 points, i don't do meditation regularly, i don't do kiirtan, i don't do this, i don't do that, i don't do many many things what BaBa says to avoid people's jealoucy. So let my wife noticeed that. Because people are curious about my level of spirituality, especially acarya. they come to my wife and ask what i am doing, what i'm going to do,...etc. When they know from my wife that i'm not a good sadhaka, they relax. So,in this way i cut down a lot of jealoucy from senior. i also relax too.